The Magic of Santa
The Santa That Never Left: On Believing, Not-Believing, and Believing Again On Christmas, community, and the magic that outlives belief For Faith Mark, who taught us how to make magic. Born Into Community Growing up in a family of nine children was loud, hectic, chaotic—and sometimes breathtakingly magical. Being the eighth of nine meant I […]
Breaking the Spell of Hope
✨ HOPE-FREE: The Freedom I’m Still Learning to Trust I need to begin with this truth:I am not fully hope-free.Not yet.Maybe not ever, not entirely. Hope runs through my family of origin like a living vein.It’s woven into our language,interlaced through the way we cared for one another,a soft phrase used like a blessing: “I […]
✨ Awakened By Shakti
There are moments in a spiritual life when something arrives that is not simply interesting, not simply useful, not even simply beautiful. There are those moments that are true in a way that bypasses every rational checkpoint the mind tries to put in it’s place. For me, that moment happened almost 15 years ago, the […]
🦃 Thanksgiving: The Thread That Still Holds Me
Holy Chaos Thanksgiving has always been a sensory holiday for me, food, noise, warmth, hands passing plates, children running, and the unmistakable smell of turkey that somehow reached every corner of the house. Growing up in a family of nine children meant that Thanksgiving was never small, never quiet, and certainly never simple. It was […]
The Prayer Wheel
✨ My father has been gone for over ten years now. Lately, he has been visiting me in the spaces between my thoughts — in the soft ache of memory, in the warm flash of his smile, in the quiet moments when I realize I’m turning something over in my mind the same way he […]
Does this Couch Make Me Look Fat?
Does This Couch Make Me Look Fat? Growing up in a big family meant two things: there was always noise, and there was always food. We didn’t have much money, but we had an abundance — in spirit, in chaos, and definitely in portions. A serving of spaghetti in our house could feed a small […]
Moments in Time
Some people come into our lives and stay for years.Others brush by for a moment — a single crossing of paths, a fleeting exchange — and yet something in that instant etches itself into us. A moment in time that is a tiny thread in the fabric of our lives. I like to call these […]
The Power of Our Story
The Power of Our Stories: Remembering, Healing, and Reclaiming Ourselves It’s been 42 years since my life split in two—the day the girl I had been for eighteen and a half years was taken from me on the floor of a small-town convenience store in Louisiana.That night changed everything. What happened there was a violation […]
Learning to Listen
Ganesha and the Elephants of Gonarezhou I’ve been studying Tantra for fifteen years, and I’ve learned that its deepest teachings don’t just live in books — they live in experience. They speak through the body, the Earth, and the beings who remember what we’ve forgotten. In India, one of the most beloved gods is Ganesha, […]
The Audacity of Longing
Longing Claimed Most of my life before studying Tantra, I thought of longing as something secret—something to be hidden away. It lived unnamed in the shadows, something I wasn’t supposed to want too much or reach for too openly. Longing, I believed, was for what couldn’t be had—an ache for something unattainable. There was a kind of […]